This blog was inspired by #IAmBeauty with relationship.
The more allowance I have of me, who I am, how weird I am and how amazingly I have created my life, the more allowance I have of others, who they are, how weird they may or may not be and how amazingly they have created their life.
Seven years ago I was married to someone who would binge drink. One night he didn’t come home and I sobbed uncontrollably, wondering where he was, hoping our son still had a father. It was not fun calling the police station, but, oh, the relief when they told me they had him in the drunk tank. I knew that night, that the life I had created with him no longer worked for me. I demanded that something change, and I did.
The song I wrote called “Rock Bottom” is about that relationship. It’s about knowing, because we always know. I knew there was more. I could pretend that I didn’t know and choose to be the victim, but I knew. The cool thing is, my husband knew too. He knew there was more and he was willing to accept my invitation to use the tools of Access Consciousness™ to create something greater.
Today we do things such as destroying and un-creating our relationship so we can start fresh everyday. In the mornings he leaves me love notes on my smoothies. When he arrives home in the afternoons he picks me up when I run to hug him. We run body processes on each other nearly every day. He is amazing and I’m so grateful for him. I’m also grateful for me, too. We have created this, together.
When things get funky, not in a good way, we have awesome friends who we turn to for facilitation. Our marriage is kind of like the video of me singing “Rock Bottom” with a serious start, some glitches along the way and then me choosing to have fun with all of it. I wonder what else is possible? How does it get any better than this? How much fun can we have? wink
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