​I was once told, “I know you dance to the beat of your own drum, Tanya, but you can’t do that.”

It’s true, the part about my own beat. I am all over the place. I do not do most things consistently. I’m an artist. I’m a photographer. I’m a singer/songwriter. I’m an author. I’m a mama. I’m an enjoyable other. I am an Access Bars® facilitator. I am ME!

Here’s the thing. If I had listened to that person telling me I couldn’t do what I desired to do, I would have a very sad life. I wouldn’t be doing what brings me joy. I’d be working hard for someone else, instead of enjoying life for me. And what if me choosing joy invites you to choose joy? The world could use some more people choosing joy. I don’t mean go out and quit your job, unless that’s going to create more for you.  

If you could be anything, what would you choose? I choose to facilitate through art, music, writing and Access Consciousness Bars®. What if the canvas or silk scarf that I have played with invites you to choose more joy? What if the art class you choose invites you to choose more joy? What if the song I sing, even if it’s sad, invites you to choose more joy? What if the Bars® class you attend or the session you receive invites you to choose more joy?

What matters is that you get to choose joy. YOU GET TO CHOOSE JOY!

You get to choose joy.

You get to choose joy.

Have you had your Bars® run?

You get to choose joy.

This blog was inspired by #IAmBeauty with relationship. 

The more allowance I have of me, who I am, how weird I am and how amazingly I have created my life, the more allowance I have of others, who they are, how weird they may or may not be and how amazingly they have created their life.

Seven years ago I was married to someone who would binge drink. One night he didn’t come home and I sobbed uncontrollably, wondering where he was, hoping our son still had a father. It was not fun calling the police station, but, oh, the relief when they told me they had him in the drunk tank. I knew that night, that the life I had created with him no longer worked for me. I demanded that something change, and I did.

The song I wrote called “Rock Bottom” is about that relationship. It’s about knowing, because we always know. I knew there was more. I could pretend that I didn’t know and choose to be the victim, but I knew. The cool thing is, my husband knew too. He knew there was more and he was willing to accept my invitation to use the tools of Access Consciousness™ to create something greater.

Today we do things such as destroying and un-creating our relationship so we can start fresh everyday. In the mornings he leaves me love notes on my smoothies. When he arrives home in the afternoons he picks me up when I run to hug him. We run body processes on each other nearly every day. He is amazing and I’m so grateful for him. I’m also grateful for me, too. We have created this, together.

When things get funky, not in a good way, we have awesome friends who we turn to for facilitation. Our marriage is kind of like the video of me singing “Rock Bottom” with a serious start, some glitches along the way and then me choosing to have fun with all of it. I wonder what else is possible? How does it get any better than this? How much fun can we have? wink 

​I was referred to as a blogger recently. I haven’t even written anything since March and it’s now October. Does that really make me a blogger? Not a consistent one. However, I’m not really hung up on definitions or consistency, so instead of judging myself for how I do things, I’m just going to do what I do. And in this moment it means, I’m going to write a blog about a POD.

So what’s happening? I’m hosting a POD for the Global Access Bars Class being facilitated by Gary Douglas and Dr. Dain Heer, the co-founders of Access Consciousness™ on October 7th. What’s a POD you say? We’ll be live-streaming the class from Houston on my TV in Summerland, BC. This is a class I usually facilitate myself, however, whenever the possibility arises to take this class with either Gary or Dain I choose it. 

What are the Bars® you say? There are 32 points on the head that when gently held allow us to effortlessly eliminate the thoughts, feelings and emotions that are stuck in our heads. It’s like cleaning out the hard drive of our minds so we’ll function more efficiently. Sound good? Yeah, it is! It’s easy and anybody can learn it.

Would you like to join me? We’ll be starting at 7:30 am on October 7th. You can also live-stream it from your own home. You can also travel to Houston and attend live. You can also join another POD. No matter where you experience this class it will open up possibilities in your life. But don't take my word for it. Choose it! 

Ask me today what this photo represents and I’d say “joy”. It captures a moment of me standing in a lake as waves surprise my thighs with kisses of cool water. I’m grateful for my enjoyable other who is standing on the shore taking my photo, I’m grateful for the facilitation another friend is offering to bring ease to the photo shoot and I’m grateful for me.


Can I let you in on a little secret? I wasn’t always joyful or grateful for me. I used to judge the f*&% out of myself. Ask me yesterday (as in before using the tools of Access Consciousness™) what this photo represents and I would have said the winner of the horse teeth competition, or worse yet, British teeth (sorry to offend all you Brits!). I would have looked at this picture and cringed in my judgment, remembering every facial trauma I suffered and every painful dental surgery I endured.  I would have looked at this photo and hated my teeth and in doing so, hated me.

What did my teeth ever do to me to deserve such hatred? They are these amazing body parts that allow me to eat, smile and nibble the way I do. Do you notice that with gratitude there is no room for judgement? And do you notice that with gratitude there’s plenty of room for joy?

Would you and your body enjoy more gratitude? How about more joy?

Have you heard of Access Bars®? It’s the first class in Access Consciousness™ where you gently hold 32 points on the head to dissipate thoughts, ideas, and emotions that limit you. There’s a point for joy, there’s a point for body, and yes, there’s a point for gratitude!  On December 4th, 2015 I’ll be co-facilitating an Access Bars® one-day workshop.

Is now the time for something different? Is now the time for more gratitude and joy? Click here for more information: http://www.accessconsciousness.com/class_details.asp?cid=64856

Ha! Did you think this was about me?

I'm referring to the "me" of "do, re, mi" as I warm up my voice (vicariously through these fingertips on this computer keyboard) to tell you about why I'm SUPER excited…

The thought of performing used to paralyze me. I could create a song at my piano with ease, but when it came to even thinking about sharing my voice with others… yikes!!  If you've seen me sing lately you know that this is no longer true. So what changed for me?

I started using the tools of Access Consciousness. That is all.

Why am I SUPER excited? There is a phenomenal Access class coming to the Okanagan called "Right Voice for You - 1 Day Workshop" about presence, performing and personal magnetism. There are no prerequisites and you don't have to be a performer. 

What if you could use your voice to be the top-performer of your life, no matter what that sounds like or looks like? Will you join me? 

So here I am, minding my own business, following the energy, asking questions, being me and having fun. Yesterday, out of the blue, I get this Facebook message from a friend I've known for 35 years. I haven't seen her for a few months. Getting a message from her is not a usual occurrance.


She asks me if I'ld like to go see Sarah McLachlan. I'm thinking in my head, "You mean the one artist who, through her vulnerability, inspired me to share my songs, even though they are sad?" Seriously, if I hadn't heard her say how much she loved writing sad songs I may never have opened up to love my own. 


Then I ask in my head, "How does it get any better than this?"


My friend tells me she might have a ticket for me. Again I ask, "How does it get any better than this?" 

She tells me that the ticket would be free. "How does it get any better than this?"


She confirms today that the ticket is available and tells me the seats are on the floor, 7th row! "How does it get any better than this?" 

As of yesterday I had no plans for tomorrow night. As of now I'm going to "Shine On" to see my favourite singer/songwriter perform with an amazing friend.

What are you creating out of the blue? Would you be willing to ask, "How does it get any better than this?"

It's an amazing tool from Access Consiousness™ and it's so simple! How does it get any better than this?